Dear GOD, I know I am nowhere near the way you want me to be, my messed up life is a consequence of my unsettling failures, I need your help to get back in track, if you still give me a chance to live like an average person I will be give it a shot for one last time. Otherwise I don’t think I will be self sufficient and survive all by myself for much longer. Please help to settle down in life. I already fell behind as much as I think I wouldn’t be able to cover up ever.