I really do feel bad if I hurt you to the point months later you’re still seething about it. It wasn’t intentional and that really weighs on me. I never want to hurt people, but thats always what happens. I realize this isn’t fixable, but it pains me knowing I caused harm to someone. Im sorry. I really hope one day you can accept my amends. I really am I’m grateful for what you tried to do. Just Loss and death over and over…its all I know. Sorry having a hard time but I won’t try to talk to you though. Promise. I never should have come, what a mess. For what its worth though i really did have great birthday 🙂 I feel like I need to compensate you more. but how could I even relay a message it was there ? Not sure. Would that make it better for you? I really don’t know what else to do besides go away . I want you to have peace too.
