For whatever its worth, I really did care and really do miss you. But lets be real here, if you really wanted to do something you would soooo for now no you cant talk to me because you don’t need me for anything. Plus ive been demonized to way too many people. My mom is right, you miss only what I was good for, namely money and a way to fill the void when life hit bottom …you know being stuck in that house …and possibly as a vehicle for validation and companionship until that loser came back around. Now that those needs are filled, why would you bother right? Just put me on the shelf for a later time…. nope. dont think so. As much as I genuinely miss you, I know you would have to hit ROCK BOTTOM again, burned all bridges and be completely without options to even think about coming around…and knowing what I know about your kind, its a long time but even only temporary. I would return as a filler again to meet your needs (money, admiration, attachment, praise) and discarded like trash again once something better came around. Kinda seems to be a pattern you have, so honestly how can I even hold a grudge or be mad? Its who you are and what you do. I dont even think you can help it. The problem is I genuinely did get attached to you so to allow that back in after a long period of time means I will just get hurt all over again. I was hoping I was wrong about this, thats why I reached it and swallowed my pride. Because peace was more important than my ego but from the looks of it thats not happening any time soon and because….again you’re needs are met somewhere else so there is no need to. Can’t tell you how painful the realization truly is 🙁 So far though you have yet to prove me wrong oh well….

also Let me save you some time, my parents are never going to shell out nor care about your life situation. And if you continue to keep in touch thinking its going to hurt me, again, its wasted focus on your part. They hate me, they have always hated me and theres a reason for most of my adult life I have avoided them…they have zero involvement in my life so honestly I could care less. My fear for you however, is that you dont seem to understand you are dealing with two psychopaths who I promise no matter how nice they are being now WILL turn on you. You are their plaything, not a person so whatever don’t say I didnt warn you.