I love you despite everything thank you so much for a wonderful birthday Nola was amazing. And it would’ve stayed amazing had the trip ended after those few days… I’m not afraid of you I don’t hate you I couldn’t if I tried I love you with everything in my heart and I probably always well but yeah I know I’m never going to see or talk to you again unless you hit bottom burn other bridges so hard you are left with pure desolation ….and even then We would never communicate normally I would just be somebody you sneak a run with basically nothing more than a dirty secret…and i don’t think That’s the kind of set up I want in my life anymore . I know you care but I’ve been trashed to too many people and You could never actually openly be my friend again because that would mean losing face and I know you could never do that so that’s where we differ. I’ve told my parents I’m more than one occasion to f*** off about this I don’t care what they think And it’s my choice what I do about it I also respect it’s yours to want to handle things this way it’s just not something that’s going to work for me I love you though I miss you thank you so much for everything