To :I am causing more sadness and pain being around…
Re: Suicidal thoughts are very serious and you should definitely consider asking for professional help.I am not going to pretend that I am an expert but I’ll talk from my personal experience.These thoughts create an endless circle of pain and misery.You trap yourself in a downward spiral.You have to find the source of the problem.What makes you hate yourself?Is it guilt?Is it fear?What exactly causes these bad emotions?Search deep down inside you. Face your reality embrace the pain and the mistakes of your past and you will prevail.I wish you the best.Be strong my friend and remember:
Through pain I gain experience . Through experience I become wiser . Through wisdom I will achieve self actualization . Success is an illusion . Failure is a lie.I hope for nothing .I expect everything. I am free
-Ataraxia