I can’t believe it. I can’t believe it got that bad. You through me onto the concrete at hurt my shoulder. Yet the crazy thing is I still love you. Why how can I love some-one who treats me so badly. Why the f*** to I actually consider staying with you and being unhappy in fear of you being with some-one else? There is nothing I want more than you to love me like I love you. But I know love cant be forced. You asked me to commit to you so many times. But I can’t I’m just not that person you want me to be. I could pretend but after a while I just resented you so back. You couldnt even communicate with me. We couldn’t even talk about real issues. What kind of f****** relationship is this? A possesive controling love hate game. F*** it. Each day that goes by doesn’t seem to get easier for me. I don’t know why. I need to tie my ends you have broke me down to something so weak. All my morals had gone out the window. 3 years and I don’t know who I am anymore. No thanks to you. I pray to god everyday to get me through this. I Don’t know what the f*** to do. My f****** family says im just running away from you. So what every time ive faced you youve abused me. F*** off I just want to leave and thats what im going to do.