One of my oldest friends is a famous old school rapper. I’m sorta famous but he and his group had bigger radio and video hits in the ’90s. Warner Bros. Pushed his group, and we got the stepchild treatment because the promotions and marketing director and our manager didn’t get along so my group got punished.

Anyway my friend and I formed a new group with two other veteran rappers who were also on major labels but then came what was the real catalyst of his old group breaking up, his massive f****** ego.

He thinks because his old group had the bigger hits that he should lead the group into a direction none of the rest of us wants to go. He’s been playing games with our producer who he thinks he better than.

So what did I do yesterday?

During a session in the studio a couple of days ago I lost my temper and wrote a verse with subliminal lines about him and he didn’t realize that my lyrics was about him. Everyone in the group caught it except him because he’s such a narcissist.

His wife, however, caught on and emailed my wife asking her to get me to change my verse and of course my wife backed me up. So what she go do? She contacts me via text message and tells me something very personal I never knew about him, so I told her I will consider it just to make him sweat a little longer.

An hour ago I saw on Facebook that my friend attempted to commit suicide. He’s in the hospital and he might not make it.

This is my fault. I went too far and I forgot how powerful words can be. I feel responsible and now I might lose my friend because I’m so vengeful and petty.