I’m always so extremely h**** around this time and he knows it. He knows my schedule. But my fiancee wont f*** me right now. I’m not allowed to say I want him with words nor touch him with any body part besides my mouth, so I just sit and wait for him to f*** me when he pleases at times. Sometimes I crawl to him and beg if he’ll tolerate it. I put my face in his crotch and lick the middle of him. I’m pretty good with my eyes and smile to tempt him. Sometimes tug on his waistband. No words. No hands. Just teeth. Sometimes he takes it. It’s unnatural for a man to sit and wait for s**. The big beasts of the wild just take it when they want it. They are the choosers. My man is a beast of a man. A chooser. A real alpha male. A super intimidating Tarzan. Our s** would look like r*** to the brainwashed & socially constructed women of this concrete jungle. S***** force is natural on a man and his natural s** instincts come out. He bites my neck, just hard enough to cause soreness for a few hours after. I’m always sore. Either because he fucked me or because wont. I like the sorness that lingers afterward. It makes me feel like he’s still on me when he’s gone. I’m getting sore right now because he hasn’t fucked me in some days. He breaths heavy in my ear, but sometimes quiet. He sweats on me too. I love it on my neck and back and when it create a chill when tosses me around. He’s always so hot & audible. He scares me when he’s quiet but it’s exciting not knowing what he’ll do next. But I prefer his audible signs of pleasure, no real words, just grunts, howls, groans, etc. The original language of beastly man. Beasts don’t say silly made up things that men are socially constructed to say while f******. If men were more their natural selves, between making a woman wait and his audible sounds, more women would o*****. But these are just memories since he currently won’t f*** me. I’ll moan in pain tonight if he doesn’t f*** me. He pretends he hates it when I starting groaning for s** because to him I’m being disrespectful to his prior refusal but (I think it kind of turns him on when I’m hurting for him) sometimes he gives in but he always fucks me extra hard and angrily to send the message that I am not to disrespect him like this. I can’t help it. I think I’ll risk it. He can be considerate during these times when I’m ovulating. He’ll be out of the shower soon.