there was a time I saw what looked like CSAM, so I looked away immediately. then I thought “was that really CSAM or did I misjudge it”, looked back, verified that it was pretty likely to be CSAM and then immediately looked away again, that time for good. then I reported it.

there was a time I got a popup ad advertising “teen p***”: fearing that it might’ve been CSAM, I closed it, but then had the same thought as above and reopened it so I could be sure before I report it, which I did. I don’t know if those actors were actually 18+ or not, though it seems likely they were.

there was a time that, on my Google image search results, there was a “teen p***” thumbnail. I looked away, but then added a word to the search and scrolled down the results again, knowing that the thumbnail might’ve been there. it was, and I saw it again. I don’t know if those actors were actually 18+ or not, though it seems likely they were. I reported that too, but I was panicking about something else at the time and allowed it to distract me from my moral duty, so it took me a day or two iirc.

have I done moral wrong? have I done harm? and is it redeemable?