It seems all problems would be sorted out if I had the courage and determination to commit suicide. No fate-gambling of God, no turning back to who left me alone, no more sinking down depressed, no more need to fukin try to smile artificially, no more watching out who reached better success, no more fukin society interference to personal life, no more emotional threatning form parents to keep on trying what they want me to be and no more repeates fatal failure due to lack of luck.

I wish I could shout ‘f*** the luck and f*** your unfair world God! I am not quitting, I’m just getting rid of my pains you gifted me, won’t take any more’ and jump off the cliff.