i just had a panic attack, or an anxiety attack, i dont know what to call it, heart racing, teeth chattering, crying. its all because somethings wrong with someone i care deeply about. his dad is abusive, his mother is incredibly controlling. im so sad and tired, i can’t help him at all, i’m so useless. he’s so scared of his parents he won’t stand up to them, and he pretends it’s because he doesn’t want to lose me but i know it’s not true. everything just really s****, and hurts a lot. i wish something would change. i’ve tried so hard, but he just can’t stand up for himself. he’s never stood up for keeping me around either. he’s so passive in everything he does and i’m so inadequate that i can’t help in any way other than giving advice i know he won’t follow and telling him everything will be okay someday, just hold on, i’m here, we’ll get through it together, but there might not even be a future for “us” because i want to commit suicide. i can’t blame him for how he deals with it because that’s not fair, he’s been abused, i just wish i could f****** help somehow