I can’t stand another second without my crush! She’s the only thing keeping me from killing myself but the only thing which I can’t have. It hurts even more when I think of how distant she seems from me. She’s the smartest and funniest girl I’ve know, to top it all of her face is f****** perfect. I’ve been thinking of kidnapping her in a perverse and twisted fantasy, involving eating together and f******. It’s insane! I don’t know anything about her, I only know so much through seeing how quirky she is in social interactions. I can get away with r***** and kidnapping her, blame it on my Asperger’s or Bipolar disorders. I can get away with 5 years tops. I can track her IP on Facebook, sneak into her house, knock her out (with helium I can steal from my school), tie her up, put her in a bin bag, go to the river, make a fire, cook beans (Put a ton of cough medicine in there to make her forgetful and giddy), f*** her, knock her out again snd return her. I don’t want to do it though, I don’t want to hurt her emotionally or physically. I feel so scared and conflicted.