Lately i feel so numb. I think i might be going through depression. I get anxious out of no where nearly every day. I start crying out of no where. I feel useless. I feel like i have let down everyone. I feel like i have to start over but i dont know how. I want the pain to go away. I want the guilt to go away. I dont want to go through this anymore. And sometimes i think it would be all better if i was gone