I had a sleep paralysis dream last night that the man I like who turned me down for something serious recently wasn’t having s** with me while I couldn’t move and telling him no. I woke up so angry.

The s***** part about it is last week he caught me in distress contemplating suicide while intoxicated, then had s** with me which I don’t remember, then called my parents 48 hours later to tell them I was suicidal.

So the dream may have been closer to what happened than I’d like to admit.

I can’t belive I’ve come to a place in my life where I could have made that statement.