My girlfriend has autism and she is amazing, she has some of the cutest behaviours ever and she always makes me laugh with the things she says and does; she can make anything funny. She really makes me happy and I love her so much. I honestly am in love with her and I feel like she is ‘the one’ for me. About a month ago I told her that I love her more than I have ever loved anyone and I want to marry her one day, but her mother said that I am just a bullshitter and that im a womaniser and I am no good for her. The thing that really pissed me off is i am not a womaniser, I even only ever had 2 relationships in my life and I was celibate (through choice/religous reasons) for 6 years before we started dating.
Although I do really enjoy sleeping with her, I actually love her for her quirks and the way she behaves and the things we have in common; she is my best friend as well as my girlfriend. She makes me feel safe and comfortable and above all she makes me feel happy and understood. The only reason I agreed to sleep with her the first time was because I knew I want to marry her. And it upsets me so much that her mother thinks this way about me, her mother doesn’t know me at all but she thinks I am some kind of womanising, party-loving lad. When in reality I have never even been to a party and I have no friends other than my girlfriend, shes the only person I have ever met that is the same age as me.
People I always tell me I look like a thug, I have my head shaved and have lots of tattoos but really I am such a nerdy, reclusive guy who doesn’t like socialising much and I aspire to be a pathologist one day (I’m studying currently). But yet people always look at me like I am some kind of dumb, macho popular alpha male who always parties and hangs out with people and sleeps around all the time. Everyone thinks this s*** about me and even strangers assume me to be that way when I talk to them. I think it’s my appearance or something.
But it just upsets me so much that her mother thinks of me that way. She thinks I am a bad influence on her daughter and that the relationship won’t last long and that I am only with her for the i**********. Her mother even said I was bullshitting about being celibate and about having no friends. Her mother told her that she should get checked for STDs regularly because she thinks I am some kind of manwhore and thinks that i would cheat on her daughter. It makes me hate myself so much I really wish that I could show my girlfriend how much i really do love her and how much she means to me, but I s*** at words and everytime I try to express these feelings her mother says it’s b*******. I don’t see why her mother thinks this about me but it really really infuriates me and it hurts so much