So maybe this fits in guilt but maybe it doesnt….

i’m engaged to be married. im very happy. but i’ve always cheated. not going to try and justify that but i’ve had some great emotional bonds with other people over the years. its not just about s**.
anyway. i started chatting to a woman a few days ago and we connected immediately. i was really attracted to her and where she was in life. but she was very unsure of what she was doing and has left the website with no warning. now i feel very deflated. maybe i was crushing on her too hard too quickly but i really saw myself building something really beautiful with this woman and now she’s gone….