If only I can tell you this. I lost one of the greatest friends ever and I didn’t know that until it was too late.
You were the greatest friend I ever had, you actually listened to me,you were there for me, you remembered the smallest details about me,sure you weren’t perfect non of us is and we had small fights but in 2 minutes everything was solved.
You were the only one whom I could been real to,you knew the real me and you’re the only one whom I opened my heart to.
You fell in love with me and I was too scared to or maybe I felt like I can never be loved. No one has ever liked me before but you did and I hated myself to the point where I didnt want you to hate me too. I started to take disatance, I loved you to the point where I wanted you to find what’s better than the broken me. I started to search for any guy whom I can love just to convince my heart that I’m not in love with you. You were great you deserved better and I was dumb enough to convince my self so. I went after a f*** head just to distance myself and make you feel like it was my fault and not yours. Tbh now that I think about it, I’d rather have you hate me then hate your own self. I’m used to it but I don’t want you to feel like I do.
I’m sorry, you are amazing, you deserve better . Me ? I’m nothing but a shattered soul, ever sense I was born I was meant to live in chaos. It’s ok. I’m so sorry I wish you were still here and be there for me when I needed you, because you were the only one for me.
I’m sorry,be safe, you’re great.