I’m going to hold out for a few more days, but by next Wednesday morning, I’ll have killed myself. Just like my sister. I know all the s*** about why not, seek support, but there is not support for me, not in America. We don’t really take care of our people. And I have insurance, but the last time, a few years ago, that I was suicidal and knew it, I checked into a mental health hospital where they showed me they really didn’t give a s*** about dealing with the depression. They treated us like prisoners, and I bucked and stood up to them, we were patients. I have no faith in a hospital to actually treat me, and treat me humanely. So f*** it, and f*** life.im sick of being abused, sick of others playing the victim card and harming me. Once the damage is done there is no fixing it, and I’m done. The only question is, do I go on a killing spree on my way out, take out some of these fucks who are an affront to our decency and tolerance of one another.