I want a BBC lover so bad. I have been with a black man and he was cute. I want more of the same. I loved stealing glances of him attending to me in my lounge mirror. This got my mind wandering.

I used dark foundation once on my face and hands and wore an afro wig with complementary make up. One black guy was on me like a shot. I couldn’t believe how many white men told me they liked black women. OMG I can’t believe it. Going out as a n***** woman. lol. I’m going to buy waterproof dye actors use because it doesn’t rub off and some black hair dye to dye my hair and trimmed p****. I’m so scared thinking about being picked up by a black man and having s** with him. Being two n****** f****** long and slow for hours in a hotel room turns me on so much. I also have clothes I can mix and match which will niggerfy me more. I’m really curious what he might talk about. Will be be really sweet and kind or will his n***** mouth be full of racism against whites? I’m not racist at all. Live and live is what I say. There’s plenty of decent blacks about and some have been good friends. I don’t wish them any harm. I’m just aching to know what it’s like to be a negroe in bed and venting using the n***** word. What’s it like being black for a week? How much racism will I experience? I have wondered about cosmetic surgeryto get my lips tweaked so I have a look closer to fat n***** lips when using make up or dye to appear black. How different will the experience be of white c*** stretching black p****? Will white men be closet racist and still not be able to resist n***** p****? I don’t know what would happen if I told men I was actually a white woman. Would it f*** his head up or would he lose his lust for me? What will the experience be of looking down at my whole body being a n***** woman? I find it e*****.