So, I met this g****** freshman year in high school. She became one of my closest friends, but around the beginning of our junior year, I developed feelings for her. It was so confusing cause I had never liked a girl before; but later that year she had a boyfriend, so I had to hide away my feeligs.

Eventually, on our senior year, like a month before graduation, I confessed to her. We ended up in good terms and we continued being friends; the thing is… I told her I had gotten over her, but I hadn’t.

When we started college, she had broken up with her boyfriend during the summer, so I thought about asking her out (didn’t know if she would accept cause as far as I know, she’s straight, but it was worth the shot), little did I know that around november, she had gotten a new boyfriend (I felt really low).

They broke up on january and she hasn’t dated anyone ever since. Last night, some friends and I hung out cause it was a friend’s birthday. She had always been so shy and adorable, but when I arrived at the party, I was shook! She got a pixie cut, she was wearing some tight black shorts, high heel boots… She looked pretty as ever but also (I don’t really like talking about her like this) so. f******. HOT!

Everything was fine. We were catching up, enjoying each other’s company, when this song comes up and she says “man, I love this song”. She stands up and starts dancing like I had never seen her dance before; swinging her hips, going down… She was so damn s*** and was almost drooling #femaleerectiontime. I literally had to go to the bathroom and wash my face cause I was almost in tears thinking “What is she doing to me?!?!?”

I flirted with her all night, but I don’t think she got the hint, walked her to her car when she left and she promised we would hang out soon. I ended up telling my best boy-friend that I had a thing for her (I trust him like hell, but he’s kinda close-minded, so I had been hesitating about that), but what had me really messed up is that I couldn’t stop thinking about her and how f****** perfect she looked and how s*** she danced and…

I masturbated thinking about her. I had fantasized about us before, but I had never gotten that far. I just… Ahh! I wanna be with her! I wanna go down on her while I give her compliments in between; tell her how f****** perfect she is while we make love and just…

Man, I wish she was bi and liked me as well.