Over the last month or so I’ve started doubting if I’m alive. I don’t feel it. I have these moments where I question it and they’ve been getting more and more frequent. I woke up this morning with the sudden urge to check it. I checked for a pulse in my heart in my just awakened, blurry state and couldn’t pick it up. I thought I was for a minute straight before it occurred to me to check my wrist instead. I’m not sure what’s causing it but I do have a serious, growing thought that I am dead or not completely alive nor do I have the slightest clue what to do about it. I’m a 21yo male so it’s not just some weird teen phase. What is there to do if anything? What does it mean to be truly alive? How can I prove to myself I am alive if that is the case?