no more drinking alone
its killing me. im an alcoholic

Ihave to start somewhere. my drinking problems didnt begin in college, I drank much less than most average college students, from 1998-2002.

They didnt even start the two or three years after college when i worked as a teacher, I rarely ever drank on weekdays, rarely got drunk, and almost never drank alone. Id have a few beers with friends ata bar on a friday night or a few beers while watching a game but that was it.

then sometime around summer 2006, when my new girlfriend who did not drink or smoke cigarettes moved in wkth me right after she graduated high school. she had been a student in my class. we got along great but I tried to hide my cigarette smoking from her and claim I had only ever been an occassional social smoker – not at all true – instead I drank. I drank everything and I drank everynight

that summer of 2006 is when we remodeled a house Id inherited and wed do it after I got off work from a summer job Id gotten downtown. iddrink a six pack of beer bymyself. she rarely drank even one since she didnt like beer. so i bought ginand would drink gin and sprite, she didnt like hard alcohol either. so id drink four or five glasses of gin alone, either while we watched Jon stewart on comedy central or while I played video games or just while I was alone.

summer of 2006 is when i started drinking alone everyday

ive drank everyday, often alone, nearly everyday since then

Im thinking the drinking alone part is the key to my downfall