i don’t know what i want to do with my life. i might sound very obnoxious or ungrateful, but please note that i’m not trying to brag or complain in any way, bear with me: i do very well in school, and it’s only been noticed these past 2 years since i moved schools. here at my new school, i’m expected to well. ever since i was first acknowledged, here’s been a heavy burden on me to do well and impress my peers, otherwise i feel like a good for nothing. i involve myself in other activities such as school clubs, sports and committees, and for some reason i seem to do well in those aspects as well. but i’m always discredited. i try so so so hard to uphold my reputation but everything always blows up in my face. ‘we expect this from you’ ‘we have high hopes for you’ ‘it’s only expected that you do well at this since you’re good at everything’ believe me, i haven’t got any natural smarts or talents. i’ve only gotten to where i am because i push myself to the very limit. but now i’m starting to realize that i wasn’t doing it for myself all along. i was doing it to please everyone. my parents. my teachers. heck, even my friends. it sounds so selfish of me to say this but sometimes i wish i held back a little, and worked like an average student, so then when i did something different people would notice it instead of just expecting it. anyways, if you’re reading this you must be thinking that i’m the most precocious brat ever, but, this brings me to my final point. i’m nearing the end of my schooling career and i have absolutely no clue what i’m doing with my life. or if i even have any motivation left. i never really had any interests because i was so focused on doing everything in the. est way possible. this is going so off topic. all in all i’m just very sad? you could say. i never took the time to learn about myself. and now i feel like it’s too late. i have to uphold this reputation for the remainder of my life because that’s the way i’ve set things up for myself. good grief. congrats if you’ve made it this far!!!! i’ll be finishing up now. enough ranting for me i guess haha