I’ve been lonely for so long that I’ve started talking to myself , i”ve start fantasizing about having interesting adventures , talking to my favourite characters from fandoms and give myself a story in them . I did it until the point that im drowned in them , i feel so much more happy than actually living my life . but everytime i go into that fantasy world it’s a reminder that nothing will happen to me , of how boring my life is , but it’s okay .