Hey ! ( Please just take my confession seriously and just be nice because I’m honestly so tired of everything )

I have a crush on this guy, he studied in the same school as me but I moved out and I ended up knowing him through messages . We never really talked to each other in school or smth we just knew that we were from the same school by coincidence ( long story ) we talked ( texting / calls ) for like a year or more and we recently met each other since we both now study in the same university.

Anyway the thing is that idk if he likes me as much as I like him .

He sometimes treats me like a princess comes next to my house’s door, fills me with love and affection then other times he’s just NAH like he’s not the same person and I try to understand when he’s not the same person like maybe he’s going through something or whatever . When we met we talked for a few moments and just went to class because each one of us had different classes. I was so scared that he might not like me in person since I’m highly insecure about my looks but my friends said that he looked at me he smiled when he saw me but I couldn’t even look at him because I just … love him and I just couldn’t look at him straight in the eyes.

Anyway 5 days ago I saw him with a friend of his going to study and we both looked at each other but didn’t talk and he later texted me that he saw me but the question is why didn’t he come and talk to me ??

[ We only talked face to face like once 🙁 ]

We don’t text like we used to do last year tbh.

Sometimes he spoils me and other times he just makes me question my self over and over and over again.

I keep wondering what am I to him
It’s just like what Katy said : He’s hot then he’s cold he’s yes then he’s no…etc

I feel like I’m not enough for him ? I gave him my time my love my attention my heart and everything but maybe I’m just not enough you know.

I can’t figure him out. Sometimes I’m like yes I know for sure he likes me ( like yes I have some valid obvious signs ) and then I just look around and say no he doesn’t ( The signs too ) I’m just sick of this I want to talk to him about this but I’m afraid I’m gonna lose what’s left of him or he’s just gonna be like ” Yo girls whatchu talking about ” and just and up embarrassing myself.

Am I not worth it or what ? I just can’t figure it out

Please help me to understand because I’m so lost