I am 20. I had this crush on this guy from past 5 yrs… Our parents are quite close.. I know him from diapers we went to same kindergarten but then when i am in my 1st grade he went another school we don’t talk much nope no interactions…he did his high school from a boarding school..i did from central govt school (don’t judge when i say its govt its hard to get seat in that) Its been nearly 11 yrs i didn’t see him once. But i get to know abut him from my mom and his mom she mentions him occasionally (did i mention she like me)..they invited me for dinner but i skip them last min i don’t want to encounter him and look like dock or idiot or blush before everyone.. No one knows abut my little crush not even my bff..?

I literally stalk him in ig and fb.. ?‍♀?‍♀ He is super cute and my first crush and i literally fan girl him. I can’t say my feelings bcz this will break my mom’s friendship if he mentions that to his parents or thinks i am stupid i dont know if he do that or not. I am pretty sure he is heart throb. any way i don’t expect anything from him. I want him to notice me that’s it and i want to express my feelings and run dang it no need to reply…that would be dream come true..? I texted him once and it shows he is least interested in me..

Argg….I am in f****** university right now and i didn’t have a bf nope not even ex..(kiss nope) Yeah.. Pity me.. I don’t understand why but i compare anyone who hit me.. (Okay only 1 guy asked me out and i straight said no screw me) i get new crushes and i forgot them within 7days.. and don’t ask me, i can’t even remember faces… I am short and he is super tall,lean,cute smile,black sparkly eyes i love them, bed head hair and wears formals did i mention u i love guys wearing formals and looks amazzing i can’t even reach him in any way even wearing 6 inch heals..yup i am that short (5,2) dark brown hair straight and wavy ,dark brown eyes, little tan not totally pale, lean (i eat lot no diet my stomach is a black hole), i don’t like speed i am scared and he loves F1, i am medicine and he is Business, i cant even do a simple math and he tops it, i am a normal student and he is straight A’s guy, he is rich and i am not etc.. Nothing matches between us..

This is the problem i want to forget him but i can’t..
I want to get ride of him from my mind.. What should i do..
Plz plz plz help me..???