Lately I feel like I’m trapped inside my house. I’m 17 and I’m almost done with school. We live in a counyry inwhich the “elite class” doesn’t simply get out of the house for a walk but the funny thing is that we are actually not that wealthy as to have that kind of life style. It would be much easier and helful to be able to walk or catch a cab. Instead,We’re supposed to take a car but I’m not legally aloud to drive yet and my parents or siblings always keep the cars busy anyway. Mom doesn’t think its safe for me to take an uber or catch a cab either. She says I’m too young. I have social anxiety and I feel like it must be because I don’t go out alot. Not because I don’t want but simply because I can’t. I get upset thinking that this will be me till I graduate from uni and get a job to save enough money to move out. I always thought I was that weird one who always did the craziest s*** without caring for what people thought. I like to look at the world in a perspective not many people do but being trapped at home makes me feel like I can’t do that anymore. I’ve started teaching myself how to tap dance. I’ve been practicing kickboxing for 2 years by now. I like to paint and write so I paint the walls in our house and I roleplay with people online because lately I don’t like what O write otherwise. Theres too much confusion, chaos and restlessness in things that I write. I’ve been wanting to ask my mom if she can buy me a guitar but I can’t bring myself to do it. I think it’ll just make her upset and then she’ll ignore it, thinking I’ll forget about it. Maybe I’m just being petty and whinny but I don’t care. If I am then that’s me I guess. I’m tired of keeping this bottled up. I’m 17. I don’t want a crazy teenage experience or anything. I don’t want unquestionable freedom or wealth. I just really want to stop having to crave little things like going out for a walk or maybe movies.