I have to confess that I did have strong feelings for wapl but given everything I can see myself with other men. I wanted to make it clear that what hurts me most is being lied to and the sneaky actions of people who have family historical knowledge and them NOT disclosing the truth to me has set fire to his problem. I am happy to look somewhere else for a relationship or have none at all! all I get just about everyday from my sibblings is “I don’t care about you, I don’t care what happens to you, I don’t care about you at all” and it controls the study and lives in a world of her own conceit. last night mother yelled at the long brown haired monster and said to her “If you can’t live peacefully here and allow others to live peacefully I have the police remove you from the house” she was angry because she sat for 3/4 of an hour listening to the monster abusing. just another night with the thorns of a rose we all thought.
now madly in love with someone and no one else. it does not matter to me to feel or express love as other people do, although some times I crave a dam good f*** but not with just anyone.
then I found out that I was so hated it caused me to have a breakdown several times wondering what I did so wrong to people when I gave them what they wanted.
I also know the difference between my feelings and I always know there is more out there.
I met this amazing man in 2004 that was so beautiful and everything that I wanted in a man completely few to stand next to him to meet the things I like. but I am still alone and will move on.
it just that I feel I have to fight for everyone else because that is part of my job critera according to the powers that be! ask jasmin because she is the one who programmed me into this state and she has to take responsibility for the fact that she did not tell me who she had set up an afternoon tea meeting with anyway because if I had know I would have said all this and more there and kept it private as I am a private person and not just feeling raped by man or situation from jasmin and media (they r*** everyone by what they do) now I feel raped by my privacy being compromised.
s*** happens when you are trying to keep it all together.
grandma said “bugger the men”
now I know why!!!
