I feel like someone wants me to do something but I don’t know what it is they want me to do. I have picked up vibs from people that I am not sure if they are my friend or not. I mean a guy could meet me anywhere, I don’t understand why wilf has been so strange to me when I do and have shown affectionate feelings to him. I feel like something is wrong with me. I have gone around the bends and feel like I have been left to be planted in a grave and I am the walking dead for sure. if only these people could see how all this is hurting and the guys I have liked if they had not been so abusive towards me I would have been more faithful in all ways, they were all the guys I never even got with, or past first base.