I have considered a number of other times and those possibilities of fear placement and even the times that when Michael was young and pushed me around that made me have a great fear of water and falling and drowning and sinking with huge powerful bodies over the top of me experiences and then there were other times I had vomiting fits that were violent after trialing something as stupid as smoking but for god sake its not like I wanted to anyway. then with my relatives I know they have disliked me and that they were doing dirty things to me in their bathroom and I am recalling things. I can tell that they are trying to do a switch again.