The society that we’ve created is just some long, painfully dull game meant to distract us from the fact that we have no f****** idea what’s going on. I mean, that’s not going to stop me from at least TRYING to have a good time, but I hate just… not knowing. What’s going to happen to us all after death? Is there nothing? Do we just get sent back to earth again? Am I actually gonna suffer for all eternity? I hate this. I hate that I can’t figure it out. I just want to be able plan, to b******* my way through it like I do with the rest of my life. I want to charm my way out of this, to do what I normally do when I’m scared, but I can’t! I can’t trick my way out of death, nor can I Lie my way into knowing what’s going to happen to me. I can’t figure this s*** out. For the first time my f****** life, I’m clueless. I’m so f****** scared.