I was stupid I had this vision of myself as a professional so that a nice man with style and class could see me looking sophisticated and poised and clever. but I was a very very very shy person, which is a far cry from what I am today. but if you met me you would see I am shy and mostly quiet. I let it out on here. I have bad days with deep self hate and deep confusion and bitterness as to why the world did me wrong. now I don’t know how to see myself other then with hate!
