I know it’s really messed up but i want to be kidnapped. I want to be kidnapped and raped by a man and maybe even have a smile carved into my face. I feel like it would be exhilarating to feel them cut me over and over all over my body to where it would leave a multitude of scars that would stick with me for the rest of my days. As long as i wouldn’t die i would be fine with it. I know it’ll probably never happen, but a guy can dream right?