My grandmother made me feel very unwanted (by her) for a majority of my life. She would put 120% effort into staying connected and being involved in the lives of her other grandchildren (my cousins), nieces/nephews, and various other members of my family. But never me. She died earlier this year, and everyone in my family is mourning her and posting about how connected/close they were…. and I find myself feeling pretty indifferent. And it is awful; because I am supposed to be grieving/heartbroken but truthfully, I am okay. And the most I have mourned, is this grandmother that I wished I had (one who made me feel loved); but everyone thinks I am actually mourning the grandmother who rejected me.