i really wanted to be with someone in a relationship forever the rest of our lives for all my life a very long time to no avail … . . . . . . yet there is still no one for me, may never be . . . no one to hold my hand … no one to sleep with . . . no one to care about in that special way . . . just no one in my life up close and personal … . . . so i went a strange route that is even lonelier than i thought still no one for me ever again ? ; . *
