Everyday I have fantasies of stabbing someone to death- could be the guy sitting right in front of me or any random girl walking past. I would imagine cutting the abdomen and see their entrails and feel the warmth inside their guts with my hands. It gives me a sensation similar to o*****, power and sometimes relieves my anxiety. It happens randomly. I would sometimes imagine doing it to a guy whom I admire for his good looks. This obsessive thoughts started when I was a younger- about 15 or 16 and somehow stopped when I got married. I am somehow worried that one day I will completely lose control and finally act on it. I must admit that for now these thoughts gives me from a sense of power and relaxation to a mind blowing o*****. I decided to confess on it because I have always wondered how I will feel if someone knows what’s going on in my head.
