for a long time now, i’ve had intense thoughts and fantasies about murdering people. not out of anger like a lot of therapists suggest either. in fact, it gives me a really big rush. turns me on sometimes too. i don’t feel remorse or bad about these thoughts, and i think that one day, i might get too excited and actually pull it off. i don’t seem like the ‘murderous’ type either. i’m a normal 17 year old girl, and i’m very passionate about being polite and treating people with kindness, but i think it’s just an act ive been putting on.
