I think i chose the right category for this. Well here it go’s. Im sorry. Im sorry for everything iv done. Im sorry for all the things iv done wrong. Im sorry for all the pain iv caused. Im sorry for all the things iv said. Im sorry to all the people iv hurt. Im sorry that im a failure. im sorry that iv disappointed you. im sorry you avoid me. im sorry you think im a mess. im sorry if you think im a waste of space. im sorry if you think im a waste of air. but who could blame you? im sorry that you found out how insane i actually am. im sorry you had to see this side of me. im sorry that i never took your hand. im sorry that i pushed you away. im sorry that i lied and told you i was fine. im sorry that i never let you help me befor it was to late. but who could blame me? by the time you would help me and by the time i let you help i was already to deep.i tried to fill this hole i dug myself in to try to reach yo again but all i did was make it bottomless. i tried to climb up and take your hand. but i just kept on slipping. it was just impossible. we kept trying anyway though. it was just a waste of time. i think we both knew that. we just didnt want it to happen. i was already loosing hope though and to see you in so much pain was unbearable. so i did the only thing i could think of. i did the thing i could do best for what i think was the last time. i told you i was fine and i let go. you didnt even notice i was gone. you didnt hear me crying. im not alone. Im here with a old freind. there not the darkness but i wish the darkness could be my freind instead. there my mind. as we fall down they mock me. they push me into the walls of this hole. they make fun of my new cracks but i cant let them win. my mind knows what will happen if i give up. I know to. i know how excited they are for that day. the deeper i fall the more they tease and the more they hut me. i can tell there getting impatient. i can already see bodys of the dead falling around me to. the darkness is creeping closer. for some reason its comforting. im broken from my mind. they mock my cracks. i could try to grab something. i know thats a bad idea. at this speed if i tried to grab something and stop myself from falling id just break more. i can feel that every angel has abandoned me. the only ones here are my deamons. there laughing is almost as bad as my minds laugh. but then i hear your voice again. your calling my name. your full of shame. your crying for me. suddenly everything else i herd went silent. the only thing i hear only you. my demons fled but my mind stayed. your voice that i havent herd in so long. i could feel i was close to the bottom. i knew that if i hit the bottom i would shatter. even though i was so close to the end and i felt like i didnt care, your voice snapped me out of it. i didnt want your cry to be the last time i herd from you. i called back out to you. I used all my might and spread my wings. my mind wont let me go that easily. they spread there wings to. they are me after all. i can see the light. even though your only a d** on the horizon i can see your sadness. I only did this so you wouldnt worry. i only did this so i wouldnt hurt you anymore. but your tears just show i only made things worse. my mind sees there chance. they lung at me and they rip off one of my wings. there wing rips off to. they are me after all. but this wont be the end. i wont let myself fall again. with what strength i have i grab onto a jagged rock. i cling on for dear life. is t your tears i feal on my face or mine? even though im not beside you im still closer than i was before. you can hear me and i can hear you. the pain is overwhelming but its better than what i felt before. even though my mind wont ever leave me be ill still go on. you look down and see my wounds but i simply smile. “dont worry. im ok! ill just wait a little for my wounds to heal.” once i gain my strength again ill be ready to climb up to you and though it might take a lot of steps itll be worth it in the end. life isnt a walk in the park. everyone always faces obstacles. though some obstacles are permanent dont let them beat you. they make you stronger. life is tough but just keep moving on. if things are tough now soon theyll get better. if theyve been tough for a while then just keep trucking through the weather. at the end of every storm theirs a rainbow. pleas know that theres someone out there that loves you. even if it seems no one dose theres always a person who whishes they could be next to you. you may not know them yet and they may not ether but soon youl find them. if you thought you found them but they wernt then that just means you havent found them yet. dont be ashamed of the scars on your wrists. your a warrior fighting through a war know as life. if you keep holding on youll make it out alive! dont listen to what others have to say. when people see something beautiful they just want it to break. you may see yourself as a dirty peace of coal but your a compressed peace of coal. a diamond. your life is the most valuable thing you have. dont throw it down the drain. keep it for another day. i know you can get through this whatever it is because your special. you have for your whole life! so please dont make that mistake. i believe in you no matter what choices you made!