i feel like jumping off balcony right now.. this probably would be the last time somebody would hear from me... if you are curious then well you will

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i feel like jumping off balcony right now.. this probably would be the last time somebody would hear from me… if you are curious then well you will never hear about me ever again on any american news or anything like on social media because 75% of the people living in this apartment dont even know that this depressed person lives here…. so just wanted to tell my backstory before i am gone… this has always been a case since childhood i am 18 now and since 5 it has been all abuse … so called father is a alcoholic and cigar addict and has spent his life wasting money on it i can see his alcohol stock piled up in that steel cabinet… and the mother she is a b****** would keep bashing me just because she lost money in stock market .. she doesnt like to cook food but still ends up doing it basing till cooking is finished.. i was always discouraged and i had and have and never will have friends in my life no siblings no hope my life is bland i dont own anything parents will spend money on crap stuff and gambling but wont give me a little money to buy a cheap android… I wanted to learn to code but i never got to do it… all girls treated me like a dirty gutter pig and i never had the opportunity to try anything new this depression kept killing and the doc said nothing was wrong with me….. yeah its like not letting live and not letting die my only hope was my old pc where i would pose as a different guy on internet on video games where i had friends where i was given a hope but now the gpu died on it….. yes i could learn to code on it but half of keys dont work on it as my anger and depression led me to bang it and i am typing using the virtual keyboard…. life was strange before the storm was amazing game and i hoped after changing myself i would get a friend like chloe got rachel…. but that never happened … maybe i failed to understand the world is a cruel place to thrive and i was a mistake being born here…. so maybe next time i will get a better life and a better hope……..the infinity is bounded by braces and i belong to null ……good bye world may never see you again ever….ps you neglected me but i still want to be with you anna…….

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After my dad passed away me and my mother took a trip back to Ohio so I could drop her off at her sister’s house.. I got to saint louis missouri and we couldn’t find a hotel to say at so I pull over in a rest area and parked in the back. We both got in the back of the van and fell asleep. I woke up wet so I opened up the back of the van and took all my clothes off. I woke up my mother and she did the same. She laid back down and I got in behind her and I got a hard on. My mother put her hand back behind her and knew I had one. I started playing with her t*** and then her c***. She said I don’t think we should be doing this
I told her that both of us needed this. She rolled over on her back and I got on top of her and she put me inside her. I started off slow and then fast. I could tell she was c******. Then again and then again. That’s when I put myself really deep inside her and came. It felt so good c****** inside her. We talked about it the rest of the way and said that we should do it more when she comes back home. And then she tells me that dad and her knew about the guy up the street making movies with me and his daughter. I didn’t think any one knew about that. There was even times that me and him had s**. I would s*** him off and he did the same to me. Mostly it was me and his daughter having s**. Mom said that her and dad would watch us. They were looking thru holes in the wall and after he was done mom and dad had s** with the wife and him. Mom said that she has all the tapes. I said even the ones that me and him having s**
She said yes and the ones of you and he’s wife. She said that dad help him sell a lot of them to people. Mom said she had copies of all of them. She would show me were they are when she comes home. I played a couple of them and she had all of them. Even ones with mom and dad having s** with them. Mom asked me if I enjoyed being with him. I told her yes I did. It was fun sucking him off and him c****** I’m my mouth. He did c** a lot. They moved away and mom and dad never saw them again.

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today has been an awful day. I won’t go into the full specifics but I feel like a failure for the actions of others and how they harmed me professionally and mentally. It came to a head when an act of kindness from one person nearly became a guilt they would carry. a lady stopped so I could cross the road. she had the right of way and didn’t have to stop. but she did. the person behind her whipped onto the shoulder of the road and around her nearly hitting me. had I walked faster, had i not been watching one persons act of kindness would have been a guilt that weighed on them. The worst part is I am not sure if am upset at the impatience of the person who nearly hit me, or disappointed I didn’t move faster.