I have some kind of demon inside my head. Sometimes when i go my mother this unwanted element comes out of nowhere and makes me imagine whacking her head with something … like, kinda involuntary. Dunno what I did wrong to deserve this. Could be because of my rather painful childhood? Aside that I develop morbid thoughts about myself and those close to me. Like I fantasize about the funeral of one of us … crazy right? Who with a right mind thinks like that? Every time this comes up I tap, knock or shake my head – except I’d be careful not to do that in public or everyone might think I’m crazy. How do I stop this?
