so deeply depressed again. came back from support group and felt just drained out completely. I feel deep fear over needing medical assistance again as my rib right area has been sore and I woke with bad pain in the back. I really want to go to the doctor about the old have to do things like a pap smear and breast ultrasound and heart check but I am afraid to ask him. I have seen this doctor for a few years but he has never done a pap smear and I am afraid as never had a man do them on me, but I did get him to do an outside swab and check on the surgical cuts post birth as it was cheaper then the specialist fees. I feel embarrassed to ask him to check my breasts or give me a ultrasound referral as he might think I am a hypochondriac seeking attention. why won’t any one care about my real needs to stop me from excessive worrying?
