So I end up dreaming and day dreaming about getting spun out on meth then having a private place for me and one to two other people to be alone for a day or two with plenty of meth to smoke and just have intense meth s**. I legitimately want this to happen. I am not a normal meth smoker but I have had s** and I have masturbated on meth. Actually when ever I have had meth in the past I get super super horn but my bf is against drug use of any sort which is fine I don’t mind. It’s easy to stay drug free for him I just keep fantasizing about cheeting on him and having a wild me s** night or two behind his back. I honestly think if someone told me they had a private place for us and meth for us to smoke, that I would have the strength to say no with how frequent this fantasy has become.