I feel alone sometimes (?) even if i have friends around me that sometimes i dont really trust. But im not feeling lonely, i never felt lonely. But im not someone who like to be alone. I like people and i like to socialize. And i always tend to search for company. But when I’m alone, i always think that i can make other “friend”. Okay, the thing is i don’t care about people around me. I can always abandom them and search for a substitute. I never felt this feeling about caring someone, worry about them, miss them, nothing. And once i lost my “friend”, i never contact them again. Its not their problem. They always being good to me. They even acknowledged me as their best friend. But i just not feeling it. It maybe a trust issue, but i just can’t. The problem it’s in me. Even if i try to trust them, just say that i trust them. But in the end i never feel anything that i mentioned above. Oh well.. Maybe I’m the problem. Good to tell someone my story. Never did that before.
Thanks for reading btw. It’s a long one i know. I really appreciate it. Thx again.

Ps : i read it again.. And yeah… It so confusing i know. Even i get confused.