I hate my life so much. I got married too young, and now I’m stuck with a wife and two kids. I love my first kid so insanely much, and my second kid is still too young for me to bond with. Not her fault at all, and I imagine I’ll eventually love her too. But the mother of my children is the worst. We’ve gone to counselling and we’re trying to work on communicating, but the second I express my feelings I’m responded to with “you’re an a******” and other such comments and then she gets mad. Which is why I don’t communicate in the first place. Because I know if I say something, then it will just turn into an argument. But if I don’t say anything then I get yelled at for that. I wish I could start life over, but seeing as how that’s impossible, I wish I could divorce her but still be with my kids every day. That’s literally the only reason we don’t get divorced. And in front of the kids we’re civil and even kind of loving, but she’s so fake and is like that with everyone, and the second it’s just me and her she turns the switch and is back to being a b****. She cries from the stress of taking care of the infant and is so weak, and then tells everyone how good her maternity leave is going. Then when I scoff at her saying that, she gets mad at me and says that it IS good, when really she’s crying all the time and texting me at work telling me how horrible it is. I hate my life and wish I had the balls to kill myself so I could get away from it all, but I just don’t want to leave my little girl (first kid). I love that kid too much. Sorry for the rant but whatever, had to do it. It took me too long to realize that happiness in life is from getting what you want, and it took me too long to realize what I wanted (I know that’s going to sound selfish, but I married too young and got caught up with her life and now I can;t do anything i want for myself because all she wants to do is sit at home and watch reality tv. And she thinks I’m not intelligent enough for her. Life is horrible.