I was raped when I was raped when I was a 10 years old kid. I am being raised up in a religious family and I am the only child. I am a boy. I was raped by 4 people. Unfortunately, they all are my cousins. I was fucked, was forced to give them b******, I had to make them feel good by my tongue, hands, face and my b***; and sometimes my p****. At the age of 10 it was the last time I was raped. First time I was abused at the age of 7.
Now, at a grown age (below 20), I feel attracted towards both male and female. The society where I live, it is impossible to come out. Totally. I finally have a best friend. I hid almost nothing from him. This is the only hidden thing. He is homophobic. It kills me inside. He would never be okay with this dual-s***** desire, I have.
I am so confused. Was I born as a bisexual person or I got that gay-desire after being raped. I don’t know. I just don’t know.