I’ve liked this guy for a while now and today was the last day we were in class together. He’s graduating this year, but I’m a junior. He doesn’t know how I feel about him but there was this weird feeling as we were walking out of school together, like a “wow, this is your last day, we’re not going to be sitting in class together anymore” feeling. He waited for my bus to come with me because he was driving home and we talked, and I gave him a goodbye hug when I thought he was going to leave. The whole thing was difficult for me as we were hugging because I was thinking about how we weren’t going to be doing this anymore. I could feel him relax and hold me there with his hands rubbing my back and his face pressed into my hair for a long time while I did the same before we pulled away so he could say goodbye to a teacher that we saw. When he came back my bus was getting close, but he enveloped me in another hug like the one before for quite a while before I mentioned that I had to catch my bus and that I would be helping at graduation so I would see him then. I got on the bus and he waved at me through the window while it pulled away, but the entire ride home I felt this kind of airy feeling and this weird sensation through my throat like the entire essence of him, it’s hard to describe. I don’t know if it was just me being emotional about him leaving or if I actually had some sort of thing happen within me, but I wanted to write about it because none of my friends know. I just want to be with him but I don’t know how he feels.