Late night on Thanksgiving Day, I had given into temptation through m*********** a second time in a week. I gave in because I just felt like after eating so much turkey and drinking a little wine I just want to let myself be free and just do what could help me feel at ease in order to move onward. Now, I feel dirty and ashamed because I fell into temptation through lust and I have to repent for my actions by confessing my actions through posting. I know that many people tell me that m*********** is nothing to get bent out of shape about, but I’m practically a grown man and I have to be mature with my life. I masturbated five days earlier on the count that a 28 year old date wanted to have a hook up with and I kindly rebuffed telling her that was not what I was seeking on a date. Many of my friends said I was a schmuck in not going through with it, but I told them that I was not comfortable sleeping a total stranger, so in response I just went and masturbated in order to take my mind off over the issue. The second time I did it was just out of the blue, because I was full from thanksgiving dinner and it was late at night and I couldn’t sleep. Now, I have to start all over again in resisting m*********** fro this point on, and I have to make up by being selfless and devote myself to a more constructive pursuit in my dating life. In time, I hope that i will be over this before the weekend is over, but til then; I just have to keep on living and moving forward. Thank you for taking the time in reading my confession, and have a happy holiday.