I'm in an abusive relationship. Usually it's sweet and very loving. Most of the time it is, even. Sometimes though there will be one tick...and then there

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I’m in an abusive relationship.

Usually it’s sweet and very loving. Most of the time it is, even. Sometimes though there will be one tick…and then there is a lot of hurt and screaming. It’s okay though, I love my partner.

Tonight I lost my cool because my partner was talking to a friend over the phone, and not myself. I never get phone conversations and sometimes short texts. So thus the fight began, the typical match of control and myself asserting dominance.

Nobody expects a 110 5’5″ girl who is a straight A student to be an abusive partner. I graduated my high school valedictorian and am in school to become a pharmacist.

This isn’t the first time it happened. It happened once when I made him cry. I realized then truly I had a hold on this, I could get whatever I wanted. Not that I’d want anything extravagant, I’m speaking in terms of relationship needs. Like the one time he blew our plans off to hang out with a friend he had not seen in three months so I threatened my life and the whole relationship. Ultimately, I got my way. It’s never gotten physical, save the time I shoved him when he tried to hold me when I was pissed.

One time it got out of control. I realized threatening my life and to never speak again was getting ineffective. I made him have a panic attack and cry, we broke up for a bit until I profusely apologized a week later, swearing it would never happen again. I didn’t think it would. Then I messed around with an older guy at my school repeatedly because I wanted a way to get my frustration out. He was so hot, a Marine with gorgeous abs…

I never let it go. He is incompetent, sensitive, and a pointdexter. He is also my fiance.

And the day he marries me is the day he will own up to every little wrong thing he ever did…by letting me control him…

New Confession

A few months ago, my sister moved in with me, from another state. I am her 24 yr old brother and she is 28yrs old sister. We’ve been living together and having a brother and sister s***** relationship. I won’t go into details, but she is hot and s***, with a body that I desperately desired, for the longest time. Recently, we went out to a resort, to be unnoticed, to keep our relationship under tabs. We were having a drink together at the restaurant bar, when I met a friend of mine, who I haven’t seen in a year. He was a little intoxicated. We talked a few minutes and he introduced his self to my sister. He didn’t know she was my sister. As he left, he said to me, You got a hot cutie there, don’t let her go. I was going to introduce her as my sister, but he said it the way I wanted to hear it. It gets risky sometimes, of having brother and sister relationship. But that risk makes it more exciting.

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There’s this one chick in my group of friends who everyone loves. They do her work, they pamper her, they hang out with her, and it pisses me off because I’m the only one who knows she SA’d one of her exes. She’s such a s***, dresses for attention and is overall a pick me. It pisses me off because these are the only friends I’ve managed to make because of my social anxiety and I don’t want to ruin anything and be lonely again. Im still lonely, I have a feeling deep down no one cares for who I am or my opinions.