I still love my wife very much today. I am a very out going guy and take care of myself. I lift weights daily and stay very fit. I am always happy and help people all the time. I love life! I work two jobs, many hours so that my wife and daughters can have have many things in our life. We live comfortable and dont go wth out anything because i work many hours for extra money. I have never cheated on my wife. How ever my wife had an ongoing relationship with someone close for the years i was dating her and also while we were married for years. I now know everything that they did together while i worked days and nights. Because of the nature of their relationship i never told anyone about it. It was her older brother and they masturbated together and exposed themslves to ech others and had s** too. For years. I thought i was her guy. sad. I forgave her when i told her i knew somthing was going on. So she told me it all. F***. That hurts bad. Now she has become very abusive, verbally and physically to me all the time we are together. She is on antidepessants and she has other things going on….bipoler, borderline personality? Our daughters think she is crazy? She now refuses to have any kind of s** with me and says she has no desire for s** at all. I did m********* for her to watch me and get off on it like she did with her brother for years. Now she says I am the freak for offering it to her in order for me to get any kind of intimacey with her now. I am so sad and lonely. I am very handsome and muscler fit and very good personality but don’t have a girl to get close to anymore. So sad. I wanna just ravagely make super love f****** to any girl that smiles at me now cause i am so lonely and miss touching and seeing a womans body. I am pathetic! I took care of her family(aging parents, dying brother, etc) for all these years and now my wife just abuses me 24/7. In a way that makes me a huge loser for not leaving her. Love is so one sided sometimes. God i still want her naked with me like old times but now she is evil. Do people like me have a way to meet each other and become freinds and lovers? Am i going to be a whipping boy for ever and never get any p**** or cuddleing again till i die? Don’t miss read me cause I am hard working and very good looking and do security work at one of my jobs. I am not a p**** by any means and i am very good and creative in bed. I am an awsome f*** and do everything with my girl! I now am just man/boy on the side lines alone. I dont want to be alone. I feel better cause i have never told anyone about this stuff. I still love my wife and protect her family secrets, but now she says i am the freak cause i still want s**? Fucked up world i live in? I gave everything while another man enjoyed all the kink with my girl. I am just the loser. sad. very sad. thanks.