This is actually a guilt and a pain.

I have wasted so much time in my studies that I don’t see any way of catching up. I contacted my professor and made a promise to catch up by this weekend, but I am just so lazy and my head is muddled because of all the stress I have from working multiple jobs, medical issues, and being in a loveless relationship. This school program is one thing that will help me get out of a rut and yet I continue to mess up.

It’s gotten to a point where I am tempted to pay someone to do the work for me just to catch up and then take it over from there. If only I could just get started or have help from someone. I just feel lost.